if Tomorrow never Comes

After about a week be able to ease my mind,

be able to sleep and close my eyes without thought or glanced of him first

this very morning on my way to office,

i heard this song was played on the radio, was it bravaradio or kissfm?

while listening, didn't realize that one or two tears dropped from my eyes,

some years ago i remember posting in this blog about memory song,

and i remember putting down this song

'If tomorrow Never Comes by Ronan Keating' as one of my memory song with this friend

now, i remember that every time i ride in his car, 

that was the song that was played over and over again in his tape player..

he made me like country song for a change,

there was this album by Alan Jackson (country singer)

that was also favorite album of him ... my fave song from that album is 'Living on Love'

  how i still hope you just go to other part of this earth temporarily 

and would come back again someday ...

lots of "i still hope"  about him Lingering in my mind ... 

but he definitely won't return ...
I know and understand this is not good to do, but still doing it ...

we promised to meet sometimes after the lebaran season is over,

but haven't find the time yet (i seriously feel like singing  If I can Turn Back Time now) ...

how unfortunate his favorite song back then, become real now .. 

Tomorrow Never Comes for him again ...

"Sometimes late at night -- I lie awake and watch her sleeping - --- - - -"

My Memory ~ First time ~

Most people call me by 'Reb', 'Beck', 'Becca', 'Becky', or even full words 'Rebecca' ... this friend call me just "Ka" so differently than the others.

Ka, ayo lah beli handphone , yang second aja , yang penting supaya gampang gw hubungin loe kalau ada yg penting2, gw anter ya beli handphone >>> 

there you go a Memory with him ~ my first Mobile Phone  and also the same number i use until now from already more than 10 years already.

Ka, loe mesti fitness ya supaya sehat, ayok lah sekalian temenin gw fitness, males fitness kalo sendirian, yg deket2 sini aja   >>>  

so there you go another Memory with him ~ My First Fitness experience together ~ it last  for one or two years or so (i forget) @ Atlantic, not bad that i can hold doing exercise for that long  ~ even though i already move to different place, we still meet in the fitness, then we all got busy with our lives, we quit the fitness  .... 

Ka, pernah karaoke gak, si a, b dan c ngajakin karaoke, ikutan khan. 

I remember we went to Sheraton Media Hotel at the time. I hesitated , then again as usual i just tag along  >>>Memory,  he introduced me to have fun doing karaoke. ~ Another first time 




A year or two years after i moved job to that company, he also moved job at the same company, but he got placed at one store, and i was in different location, before he got accepted to other chain of retail and moved there until the his last moment.

'he sometimes still brag about you in the weekly morning briefing'  
some friends said -- after i moved from there.

Last long contact with him is when i have a difficult problem almost a year ago, it was so happened that out of the blue i received a text message from him, so then i burst my problem to him. Come to think of it , he was the First Person  i told about that problem to people outside family.

he is the kind of person who still like to keep in touch, either just monthly sms or call.

Some Memory i had with him,

i never realize i have lots of 'first time moment' until i decided to write it down,
> me with gazing wet eyes <

Just a thought : it means that in the future time,

i won't get an update of him.

And Today i truly miss this friend. 

So Long, Good Bye
Please make sure You Are Happy Up There in the Sky !!!

Resting Forever

from earth to earth ~ from ash to ash ~ from dust to dust 

The Lord God bless them and keep them, 

the Lord make their face to shine upon them

 and be gracious unto them and give them peace. 

Amen.

just in the 2 weeks time, 3 persons have died .... 2 of them are my friends, 1 is my daughter's friend's sister ....

Rest in Peace for these 3 persons ... all of them have died because of cancer ... that disease is a killer, indeed ... 1 of my aunt also died of cancer ... hopefully in their last moment of their time, they don't have to suffer of their sickness too much ...

She enjoys writing ~ she is smart, i am not sure her exact age, but she still pretty young, maybe 40 something ~ actually because of our hobby in writing we work together for Delon's magazine back then, some 5 years ago maybe ~ i remember when we had meeting after office hours for several times, especially whenever it's almost the dateline for the magazine to be printed ~ she is the person who is firm in principal ~ i love to read her writing ~ Some Good Memory with her ~ unfortunately I couldn't make it to her last visit , since it was in Bogor, where she lives ~ night time and I drive alone to Bogor so I was kinda afraid if there is something happen on the way I go there and back home, so I decided not to go ~ Rest in Peace, dear friend

Another friend is a friend and also was my manager from my previous work, more than ten years ago  ~ he is still quite young either, only 43 , two years apart from my age ~ when i heard and know how he died of lung cancer ~ was very much shocking news ~ in my knowledge, he never smoke, has healthy live, eat healthy food, do fitness regularly ~ friend said that he moan that he can't breath, and short-breath (sesak nafas) so his family bring him to the hospital ~ he is already in lung cancer stadium 4 ~ OMG , isn't that scary, cancer stadium 4 without a signal previously ~ then he was in hospital for almost 2 weeks and that is it ~ Rest in Peace, my dear & beloved friend

My daughter's friend sister also dies very young of cancer . My daughter was truly shock for some days when she got the news, i think that's a first time she has some one she know dies ..  Rest in Peace, dear friend.

Rest in Peace my dear friends ~ I am sure you are in happier place now, place without sickness and pain ~ as I never go there, but people define HEAVEN as a place where there is Never Ending Happiness ~ sounds like Great Place to Be ~ and I hope all of them are there.