February 14, 2011
Valentine's Day
Just look at my blank page, i actually have lots of things to be said, but i guess time just flew away
it's Valentine Day
so coincidence this morning, when i check on my twitter, i saw Brian Joo's twitter (Korean singer, one of the "Fly to the Sky") saying he was sick soo bad, he can barely move from the cold ... i wish him well soon ,,,
then ..........
I read Brian Kim's twitter (another Korean, he is a Worship leader singer)
he share a very beautiful love story, with the title : Introducing My Love"
I am very touched with his writing,
it turns out that he was sharing his first love encounter with his wife now ...
his story is very beautiful,
and the fact that he involve God in this matter and any other matter ..
indeed, I wish I am like him ....
i would like to copy paste his writing without his permission ,
but hopefully his story will give encouragement to some ...
taken from his website: www.briankimworship.com
(written in english and korean)
Introducing my Love, 저의 사랑을 소개합니다(한글,영어)
Introducing my Love.
I began liking her in the fall of 2007.
As I was leading worship at church, I noticed a beautiful woman worshipping her heart out.
I led worship in that same spot at that same time for the past 5 years, but it was the first time that I saw my 'love.' Her outward beauty drew my attention, but more than that... it was her inner beauty and her passion for the Lord in worship that attracted me the most.
Before that moment, I had actually known her for 3 whole years, but never once did I ask for her phone number nor did we have a long conversation. Honestly, we were not attracted to each other before that moment. So I asked myself : ' Why didn't I notice such a beautiful person before?' After that service, I began noticing aspects of her which were unseen before. I noticed how she would collect all the prayer requests of fellow church members in the prayer box. I also learned that she visited 8 different countries as a missionary in 2007. She taught little children in a Korean Montessori. I sensed her love for kids. And when several friends rode in my car, I could hear her humming along to the same English praise song with me. More than focusing on her outward appearance and beauty, I could sense her pure and simple nature, as well as her love for prayer and praise.
So, from simply being attracted to her, I fell in love with her.
I sensed this love being from God, and not of my own. I could see a future with her.
It wasn't simply about dating, but coming together as one, fulfilling the promises of God together as a family. I started to pray for us and our potential because I saw Jesus in her.
And from October 1st(2007) until November 1st(2007), I wrote in a prayer journal every day.
My heart and honest prayers were poured over those pages daily.
And this bible verse covered the last entry of that journal.
'So Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her' Genesis 29:20.
I wanted to let her know that I could wait on her. The fact was that she planned to go to Los Angeles for her studies in Design the following month. So even if things went well, we would be separated by long distance. However, there was a strong assurance in my heart that we should be together for a lifetime and if that was the case.... then I would wait.
So after much prayer, I asked her to meet me for dinner on November 1st.
After the main meal, during our dessert, I expressed to her my heart.
I shared with sincerity and boldness, that I was attracted to her.
But to my surprise, she gave me a strong rejection : NO!
Her answer shocked me and caused me so much pain.
After that first 'date,' I prayed fervently for another week. I asked the Lord to move her heart...
to change her heart... One week later, I confessed to her one more time, that I couldn't
lose her... and that I wouldn't give up. However, once again, she replied with a fervent 'No!'
She wasn't interested at all. She seemed quite cold to me at the time.
I went home that night and got on my knees again.
' Lord, you know my heart! I desire to be with this woman for the rest of my life.
When we come together as a married couple, we can unite for Your Kingdom and Your
purposes. She is an intercessor who can pray for me and the ministry You've bestowed upon me. You have called me a 'Father of Many Nations,' and I can clearly see her passion for missions.
She shares a heart for praise and worship as well. Lord, I see you in her! Please stir her heart and change her decision Lord!'
Suddenly, in the middle of my prayer, I remembered how she would share with me her dreams, and how God spoke through those dreams.
So I added an extra prayer:
' Father, would you allow her to dream about me tonight!! haha
Allow me to show up in her dream! Amen~! haha'
After that moment, for 2 entire weeks I didn't contact her once. I had done my best with my strength, and she rejected me 2 times already. And she was still not interested, even a little bit.
So I gave everything to the Lord... But just because I didn't call her, did not mean that I stopped praying. Everyday I prayed more fervently and more specifically for her and for us. Within
the content of those prayers, not only were my desires present, but also a willingness to surrender her to God's will if she wasn't His will... Not my will, but Yours... because God knows what's best!
And after those 2 weeks, my heart became so free. God reminded me of His wonderful love for me. I began to trust His plan for me...even my marriage plans.
Suddenly one evening, I received a text message... from her, the woman I love.
She shared with me that I had showed up in her dream the night before!
And that is why she contacted me first. She said that I had a worried, troubled expression on my face in her dream. So I replied half-joking: ' We're you worried about me?' She replied :No .
After our conversation, I questioned God about this relationship.
Does she like me? Why did she call me if she wasn't interested? Lord, what do I do now?!!
However, she texted me again after only 30 minutes.
'Brian. Honestly, I lied to you. I was worried about you all day long.'
Wow! God is good! hahaha
After we hung up the phone, we agreed to meet a week later, since she wasn't entirely sure about us. But before that week passed by, several of our mutual friends went out to watch a movie.
Among the ten or so that showed up, a pastor that we both knew approached me and started me with his question. 'Brian, are you praying for your future spouse?' I was shocked to hear him ask this question at such a crucial moment in my life. Then he entirely blew me away with his next comment: 'Brian, have you ever considered Jenny?'
At that moment, I was so overwhelmed and surprised that he mentioned her name!
How could he know? No one told him!! No one knows... He shouldn't know!haha
Then he began to explain, how he sensed the two of us being perfect for each other because we shared a passion for the Lord. He just sensed God's plan and touch in our lives, and normally he wouldn't interfere in such relationships... but he felt a burdent to share his heart ...
And once Jenny heard from the pastor, she was more overwhelmed and shocked...
The reason for her shock was because several months prior the same pastor recommended her
to guard her heart from men... to be careful with her relationships... but here he was now...
recommending Me to her!!
Honestly, there are more testimonies and crazy happenings regarding our relationship.
Without God, we would definitely not be together.
We were two people in the same church, who barely knew the existence of the other for 3 entire years in the same church.
However, in God's time and in God's plan...we were able to meet each other.
I strongly believe that everything happend through the power of prayer.
Currently, I am touring and recording and through the medium of culture and music , influencing the next generation as a Light.
However, before my music and career, my priority is to this beautiful woman
(right after Jesus of course).
When two become one in Christ, God can do even greater things!
As we unite, the impossible become possible!
Jacob's confession has become my confession now...
This is the person that I love the most, right after Jesus...
She is now my wife of almost two years, my partner in this journey of Faith.
Thank You God.
Thank You Jenny.
On This Valentine's Day,
and also every day...
I love You with His Love...
Brian Kim
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