My Valentine Expression ?

Waking Up ~ of course feeling good about everything and everyone

Since yesterday night, was thinking about someone I admired much from some years back.

Don't know what was i thinking this morning, but i grab my cell phone, and send an sms ... SENT ...  just something i want to do , i don't particularly care if  probably his number already used by someone else or if it is not his number anymore, or if  he absolutely don't know me. 

Come to my surprise, two hours later there is a reply and saying something like :

"You make me flattered,  how can you call a 55 years old man still look handsomely nice. Very Blushed,  Definitely my big smile of the day.  Happy Valentine Day to you.  Jesus bless always.. " .. a minute later  "oh, i am special because you are special."

Startled looking at the unexpected reply  ...  HAPPY for sure, Either it's really him who reply or somebody else, I surely don't need to know more.  

To this very day,  I still Idolize him  soo much and still somewhat followed his update from everywhere  ...  I ever wished that can always hear his speech, enlightenment, and inspiring words and actions.  Good Great Memory of some years back where i could get the opportunity of knowing  him closer  from my position at the previous place.  Always wish him well and healthy.

at the office, I remember this very Valentine moment last year, Kim Brian, a young gospel singer from south korea, had shared his beautiful love story of how him and his wife got introduced one another and be together by God.
this is my post from his twitter :   DE VALENTINE Story _ Brian Kim story _ INTRODUCING MY LOVE
Again don't know what was i thinking, I look for his twitter, then change my mind and find his facebook instead and drop few lines.  Of course i choose writing my message in the facebook rather in twitter because i can write more freely without the limitation words of the twitter.
Happy that he reply, a simple thank you words, show enough that he pay attentions to his fans.

Beautiful Day for me,,, although when thinking about it again, gosh, i feel bizarre of my own act, i don't know what got into me today, probably just feel like expressing something i had in my mind to persons i like .... Amazingly, complementing to someone, it does makes me feel good too ...  

Thank you to Pandu for the design

from the Tweet of Brian Kim - dec 26

Sharing from the tweet of @BRIANKIMCCM on December 26th, 2011: 


http://t.co/YPJC8jwp

• I remember December 26th, 1996.
  That was the day I met Jesus.
  You may question such a bold statement. How can somebody encounter God?Jesus? But honestly, it was supernatural... words can not explain.. But I'll try.
  
  Several months before that day, I questioned my mom about God's existence. I wanted to know Him if He truly was for real. There was a deep dissatisfaction in my heart with life & all that was happening.
  
  So on the 26th of December, my church youth group attended a Korean Christian Camp in Houston, Texas. I went to play basketball & check out the girls there. But once we arrived, the camp staff took away my basketball, separated girls & guys into different groups, the sermons were long & all in Korean(which I couldn't understand at the time), I hated my time there. But in the midst of that kind of situation, I encountered God.
  
  I would always point the faults and sins of others so easily. I always found a way to blame people, even family... but never recognized my own. But I began to see my sin, my shortcomings for the first time. I saw that I had been fake, that I made some big mistakes and sins to people, to family... and ultimately to God.
  And as I began acknowledging my sin for the first time, I could sense someone hugging me.... and it definitely wasn't a person but a presence.
  
  I was covered in God's embrace & there was a forgiveness there that overwhelmed me. I sensed Him saying : ' Brian, I forgive you for all the wrong you've done. I paid the punishment of your sin through my Son Jesus.' Tears began to fall down my face.
  
  
  'Brian, I know you've been trying hard to be somebody through getting good grades in school, trying to please others to gain friendships & acceptance. Brian, it's ok. I love you just as you are. '
  I wept and wept. Because for so many years I tried so hard to be accepted & feel a sense of worth. But here was God saying that I didn't need to try hard to earn acceptance. His love was a free gift. Unbelievable.
  
  That evening I looked up at the stars smiling & told God: ' I don't know what just happened, but all I know is that I feel like I'm starting all over with a new heart, a new life. I will listen to you & follow you. So please lead me & help me to share this love I've encountered. '
  
  We arrived from camp & I saw my mom waiting for me in the church parking lot. I told her: ' Mom, I understand now who God is... I met Him'
  
  We cried together all the way back home in the car. We were overwhelmed because now we both knew this Gracious God.
  15 years have passed by. A lot has happened. A lot of sacrifices were made, a lot of risks taken, a life of faith meant more losses at times... Coming back to Korea 8 years ago to be a missionary here totally didn't make sense... But this journey has been amazing & such an honor.
  
  Just want to say....
  Jesus, I love you.
  
  
  약 22일 전 twtkr for iPhone에서 작성된 글

God, will You hold me in Your Arms again

• Brian Kim tweet this yesterday, i read it in the morning in the office, (his tweets below)
  made me stop my work for a while, seriously touched reading it -- almost goosebump ,,, this guy once again amazed me through his words, his songs.  Brian Kim, one of a kind! 
  if i were not in the office, my eyes would probably be gazing already ... at his statement 
  
  
  "I became addicted to His Love ... And He placed dreams into my heart. I began to dream for the first time in my life.........  God, will You hold me in Your Arms again tonite?"
  
  
  Brian Kim has just finished his Malaysia tour for maybe one or two full weeks around Malaysia, seem from his fb and tweeter  he was enjoying his worship malaysian tour ...
  
  
  Just a thought, if he would ever showed up here, i would definitely go there at once ... hopefully there will be a chance, or if a church invite him and the other Korean gospel team .. it sounds nice ..
  
  this is the link for  : Brian Kim's tweeter
  
  
  
  

  When I first fell in love with Jesus, I could feel His love for me. It was the first time I experienced such a thing. I clearly & warmly felt His embrace. 'Oh! Even though I rejected and avoided God... He's hugging me now!! - I was amazed. It didn't make sense.
  
  Although the world around me judges me and does not love me 100%, God is different... He loves 100%.
  
  I began to learn of His love. And so I wept and wept for three continuous days. All my scars and pains... All the stress and pressures that burdened me due to college preparations and applications.
  
  All the worries and weaknesses due to failing people and their expectations.... Years and years of never receiving unconditional love ... me... me... I knelt before God weeping with all burdens, struggles, failures, sins wiped away... at peace.
  
  God, You embrace me and cover me with love. My Father. My Savior. My Friend. My God. Jesus...
  
  At that moment, I started to love Jesus for the first time. I became addicted to His love. There was nothing better...
  
  Because I realized such a love, I began to change day by day...
  And He placed dreams into my heart. I began to dream for the first time in my life.
  
  My facial expression, my life, the path I would walk.. Everything changed. Whenever I read the Bible, pray, praise... I remember His warm embrace.
  
  Tears fall down... Because I'm blessed...because I am a son who's loved...
  Because my God is living.
  
  God... Will you hold me in Your arms again today?

  작성하신 글이 없습니다. 에서 작성된 글

Brian Kim

I wrote about Brian Kim last valentine where he told his unique inspiring story of how he find  his love and become married with his wife now...  My Old post bout Brian Kim ...  Type of person who i am amazed and fond of.  First i like him because he is a God worshiper (gospel singer, my boss term) then i was pretty touched of his valentine story. (i am soo easily touched).  And not just because of that, but lately I am quite amazed and impressed of his care to people, even though it's only small things he does.  Every time i tweet him something, either it's just a greeting, a birthday wish, a question, or just a comment, he always never fails to reply back to me (and others as well , of course) as soon as possible.  Small things looks like it's not important, but it gives special touch of 'attention'.  Praying that Brian Kim's career keeps Rising and his happiness with wife and family as well as he keeps his service to God, and always stay to worship Him everywhere he goes.  God bless.

De VaLenTine's

February 14, 2011

Valentine's Day 

Just look at my blank page, i actually have lots of things to be said, but i guess time just flew away

it's Valentine Day 

so coincidence this morning, when i check on my twitter, i saw Brian Joo's twitter   (Korean singer, one of the "Fly to the Sky") saying he was sick soo bad, he can barely move from the cold ... i wish him well soon ,,, 

then ..........

I read Brian Kim's twitter (another Korean, he is a Worship leader singer)

he share a very beautiful love story, with the title : Introducing My Love"

"Introducing My Love" by Brian Kim

I am very touched with his writing, 

it turns out that he was sharing his first love encounter with his wife now ...

his story is very beautiful,

and the fact that he involve God in this matter and any other matter ..

indeed, I wish I am like him ....

i would like to copy paste his writing without his permission , 

but hopefully his story will give encouragement to some ...

taken from his website:  www.briankimworship.com

(written in english and korean)

Introducing my Love, 저의 사랑을 소개합니다(한글,영어)

  

Introducing my Love.

I began liking her in the fall of 2007.
As I was leading worship at church, I noticed a beautiful woman worshipping her heart out.
I led worship in that same spot at that same time for the past 5 years, but it was the first time that I saw my 'love.' Her outward beauty drew my attention, but more than that... it was her inner beauty and her passion for the Lord in worship that attracted me the most.

Before that moment, I had actually known her for 3 whole years, but never once did I ask for her phone number nor did we have a long conversation. Honestly, we were not attracted to each other before that moment. So I asked myself : ' Why didn't I notice such a beautiful person before?' After that service, I began noticing aspects of her which were unseen before. I noticed how she would collect all the prayer requests of fellow church members in the prayer box. I also learned that she visited 8 different countries as a missionary in 2007. She taught little children in a Korean Montessori. I sensed her love for kids. And when several friends rode in my car, I could hear her humming along to the same English praise song with me. More than focusing on her outward appearance and beauty, I could sense her pure and simple nature, as well as her love for prayer and praise.

So, from simply being attracted to her, I fell in love with her.
I sensed this love being from God, and not of my own. I could see a future with her.
It wasn't simply about dating, but coming together as one, fulfilling the promises of God together as a family. I started to pray for us and our potential because I saw Jesus in her.

And from October 1st(2007) until November 1st(2007), I wrote in a prayer journal every day.
My heart and honest prayers were poured over those pages daily.
And this bible verse covered the last entry of that journal.

'So Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her' Genesis 29:20.

I wanted to let her know that I could wait on her. The fact was that she planned to go to Los Angeles for her studies in Design the following month. So even if things went well, we would be separated by long distance. However, there was a strong assurance in my heart that we should be together for a lifetime and if that was the case.... then I would wait.

So after much prayer, I asked her to meet me for dinner on November 1st.
After the main meal, during our dessert, I expressed to her my heart.
I shared with sincerity and boldness, that I was attracted to her.
But to my surprise, she gave me a strong rejection : NO!
Her answer shocked me and caused me so much pain.

After that first 'date,' I prayed fervently for another week. I asked the Lord to move her heart...
to change her heart... One week later, I confessed to her one more time, that I couldn't
lose her... and that I wouldn't give up. However, once again, she replied with a fervent 'No!'
She wasn't interested at all. She seemed quite cold to me at the time.

I went home that night and got on my knees again.
' Lord, you know my heart! I desire to be with this woman for the rest of my life.
When we come together as a married couple, we can unite for Your Kingdom and Your
purposes. She is an intercessor who can pray for me and the ministry You've bestowed upon me. You have called me a 'Father of Many Nations,' and I can clearly see her passion for missions.
She shares a heart for praise and worship as well. Lord, I see you in her! Please stir her heart and change her decision Lord!'

Suddenly, in the middle of my prayer, I remembered how she would share with me her dreams, and how God spoke through those dreams.
So I added an extra prayer:
' Father, would you allow her to dream about me tonight!! haha
Allow me to show up in her dream!  Amen~! haha'

After that moment, for 2 entire weeks I didn't contact her once. I had done my best with my strength, and she rejected me 2 times already. And she was still not interested, even a little bit.
So I gave everything to the Lord... But just because I didn't call her, did not mean that I stopped praying. Everyday I prayed more fervently and more specifically for her and for us. Within
the content of those prayers, not only were my desires present, but also a willingness to surrender her to God's will if she wasn't His will... Not my will, but Yours... because God knows what's best!

And after those 2 weeks, my heart became so free. God reminded me of His wonderful love for me. I began to trust His plan for me...even my marriage plans.
Suddenly one evening, I received a text message... from her, the woman I love.

She shared with me that I had showed up in her dream the night before!
And that is why she contacted me first. She said that I had a worried, troubled expression on my face in her dream. So I replied half-joking: ' We're you worried about me?'  She replied :No .
After our conversation, I questioned God about this relationship.
Does she like me? Why did she call me if she wasn't interested? Lord, what do I do now?!!

However, she texted me again after only 30 minutes.
'Brian. Honestly, I lied to you. I was worried about you all day long.'

Wow! God is good! hahaha
After we hung up the phone, we agreed to meet a week later, since she wasn't entirely sure about us. But before that week passed by, several of our mutual friends went out to watch a movie.
Among the ten or so that showed up, a pastor that we both knew approached me and started me with his question. 'Brian, are you praying for your future spouse?' I was shocked to hear him ask this question at such a crucial moment in my life. Then he entirely blew me away with his next comment: 'Brian, have you ever considered Jenny?'

At that moment, I was so overwhelmed and surprised that he mentioned her name!
How could he know? No one told him!! No one knows... He shouldn't know!haha
Then he began to explain, how he sensed the two of us being perfect for each other because we shared a passion for the Lord. He just sensed God's plan and touch in our lives, and normally he wouldn't interfere in such relationships... but he felt a burdent to share his heart ...
And once Jenny heard from the pastor, she was more overwhelmed and shocked...
The reason for her shock was because several months prior the same pastor recommended her
to guard her heart from men... to be careful with her relationships... but here he was now...
recommending Me  to her!!

Honestly, there are more testimonies and crazy happenings regarding our relationship.
Without God, we would definitely not be together.
We were two people in the same church, who barely knew the existence of the other for 3 entire years in the same church.
However, in God's time and in God's plan...we were able to meet each other.

I strongly believe that everything happend through the power of prayer.

Currently, I am touring and recording and through the medium of culture and music , influencing the next generation as a Light.
However, before my music and career, my priority is to this beautiful woman
(right after Jesus of course).

When two become one in Christ, God can do even greater things!
As we unite, the impossible become possible!
Jacob's confession has become my confession now...

This is the person that I love the most, right after Jesus...
She is now my wife of almost two years, my partner in this journey of Faith.

Thank You God.
Thank You Jenny.

On This Valentine's Day,
and also every day...
I love You with His Love...


Brian Kim